“The darker the night, the brighter the stars,
The deeper the grief, the closer is God!”
- Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment
“Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but this same necessity of loving serves to counteract their grief and heals them.”
- Leo Tolstoy
“Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid.”
-Frederick Buechner, Beyond Worlds: Daily Readings in the ABC’s of Faith
Finally the Lord said to Samuel, “You have mourned long enough for Saul…”
1 Samuel 16:1
A familiar reader will undoubtedly realize that the zeal or passion in these daily posts is losing strength and momentum. Perhaps it wasn’t zeal or passion at all that was driving it though. It would be quite reasonable for me to admit that it was depression and fear that captained the ship. I want to say that “longing” played a part in that but I’m not sure if that’s appropriate. The threats to quit writing yet continuing to do so is problematic. If it was depression or fear that drove it, that is gone.
I waited and waited in the darkest of nights and now it’s all stars - it’s all God. My grief has healed me. The Lord has spoken to me and informed me that I have mourned long enough.
Cautiously I proceed in hopes that I can help light your pathway to an even stronger loving. Dear God! I hope you land on the shores I’ve landed on, where:
My spirit leaked from the wounds.
A whole spirit pooled.
I rose from the carcass of my torment.
I stood on the brink of heaven.
And I swear that Great Territory did quake
When I fell, free.
-Gregory Corso, Transformation & Escape (excerpt)
This wraps up another cycle of offerings from Hoarsely Cry. Remember to visit the "Free Stuff" link on the righthand column for other mix discs and a variety of other kitsch. Just send an address to get free stuff sent your way!
Volume IV Playlist:
1. The Smiths . I Know It’s Over
2. Russ Colombo . Just Friends
3. Charles Bukowski . Alone With Everybody
4. Beck . Lost Cause
5. Johnny Cash . Mr. Lonesome
6. Gregory Corso . Last Night I Drove A Car
7. Red House Painters . Katy Song
8. John Lennon . Love
9. Percy Bysshe Shelley . Time
10. Angel Olsen . Spring
11. Black Heart Procession . Till We Have To Say Goodbye
12. Leonard Cohen . That’s No Way To Say Goodbye
13. Emily Dickinson . We Outgrow Love
14. Fugazi . I’m So Tired